Konidias, I applaud you for struggling to take care of yourself, and doing what you need to do....most of us who are old enough to work know what it is like. Kai doesnt work, he has admitted that, someone else foots his bills, so dont let him upset you
You are correct in saying that your needs come first, and I for one are glad to see a young adult (or older teenager, whichever you may be) who have their priorities straight. The world needs more people like you in it, and less bums. There is no pride lost asking for help when you need it, most of us have, or should have at one point in our lives.
Good luck to you and your staff, I hope it all works out for you