that's 1 hour and 30 minutes we have to put up with you, ONLY. Thank your parents for me.

Am I like the only Graalian who DOESN'T try to commit suicide? I'm not trying to offend anyone it's just that it's almost like a trend that Graal players are trying to take their lives. THIS GAME IS WARPIN MAH FRAGILE LITTLE MIND!

The game had no affect on what I tried to do.
It's just a game...

I remember when my mom thought I was gonna go kill people because I was playing Magic: The Gathering and they had evil pictures on them, which I suppose equals evil to her.
lol

EVIL! IT'S EVERYWHERE!

Evildred144: Screen_Name dont feel bad I have it roughly the same Way except I dont have to contend with sisters or brothers which I guess makes me luckier then you. But my parents are total *******s not to mention they dont believe you should have anything. The only Reason I was able to Get High Speed Internet is because it wouldnt tie up my moms blessed "phone". My dad insisted I should stick with NetZero as long as I could because he is really cheap. I havent had fast food since my birthday (December 1st) because My dad dont like to pay the money for it. The last Movie I Saw Was lord of the rings.. and it was at the cheap 2 dollar theater. Basically Im not really allowed to have anything. When I get a job My parents said I have to put ALL of it toward college because they dont want to help pay me through. Reason for all this - My Parents were raised alot differently.. Although Most dont Know Im Indian. I tryed to keep this secret for a long time so I wouldnt be Called Skin Head or anything of the sort. Of course when I finally did Reveal it to a few I was Harrassed and Picked on alot.. Then I got BIG I mean muscular and I gained some weight. No one messes with me anymore. Now I have people helping me. I have support from Friends and other things. Godspeed is even helping me with my english <3 for godspeed. All in all dont keep these things inside.. Talk them out with others , you dont want to carry your burdens alone. Weither you think so or not theres people out there who will listen, know them or not.

I still wub you Ryan ;_; even if you didn't add mah new sn to your bud list ><

Oh, I don't feel bad about my situation. I know I'm gonna do something with myself, much more than my mother has done for herself.

Ryan :

Brett you never told me it o.o Pm me it.

Its not a trend of graal...its a trend of life:(
Hang in there screen_name, take it from someone who knows, this will make you stronger. And I agree with Shadow Knight, dont keep it inside, talk to someone that you can trust.
Good luck to you

thanks a *lot* for erecting me.

Hey now let's not start a flame war, they never do anyone any good in the long run.

Come on Kaimetsu, you're more mature than that I should hope :/

Calling him a "spoiled little brat" is more of a flame than an argument my friend :p Ah well I just woke up maybe I'm just imagining things, heh.

Go to the damn police.

Your mom is a ****ing stupid cow. No worthy mother would ever call the cops on their son, unless he was like REALLY ****ing out of control. Any mother should realize that kids will fight, and they will both have their own story to tell about it. I say call some parent abuse hotline and tell them about it. Then they'll help get the cops on your side ;)

evildred144: The only reason I got it was for My parent benefit. If I had just asked on a normal occasion it would not happen. I dont think im spoiled... My dad only makes 40000 a year.. and my mom dont work. I dont get crap. I even said I would get a job so I can get some of the things I want but I have to put it toward College. I literally had to beg my friend the other day just to pay my way to play minigolf -.-. Oh yeah my dads chased me with knives and baseball bats ,connected a few times (not with knives) and has even threatened to run me over. Is that abuse...?

evildred144:

I dont want to bring the really personal issues into the picture so let just drop this. If you knew me you would understand. Plus im not immature enough to start a stupid flamewar.

I laugh at people that want to kill themselves over petty family matters. You think your life is hell? Imagine living in a poor country where you don't even have a house, and you drink dirty water and have to do grunt work when you're like 6 years old.

How about living your life blind? Deaf? No legs? Then you see people crying about having a mean family or not having friends. People like that need to get out more often and realise that they are lucky to have what they've got.

People that want to kill themselves over a breakup in a relationship... christ.. don't get me started. :rolleyes: If you just sit down and evaluate your situation, you will see it will not ruin your entire life.

My family is divorced, my sister got in lots of trouble with the law when I was younger, my parents never beat me, but I still had troubles and things. But when you compare my life to that of a kid in a poor country, that's in the middle of war... I'm living like a king.

I would rather hang out with those kids, because they have got to be some determined people. Not "omg my gf dumped me so I slit wrists k?". :o

evildred144: My mom was offered A high paying job but she is so lazy she wouldnt take it =/. Shes the kind of person who would rather sit on the couch talking on the phone and watching tv then getting a job... I dont even understand my own parents.

You can't be THAT poor, if you have net and a computer. Just wait it out and when you're old enough (if you're not already) go get a job and make money that is yours to have.

maybe I post my dad's story, he was a vietnam refugee during the war.... He being the oldest son of 9, had to take care of the family and be a "leader" (vietnamese custom). He started going to college in saigon, yet he left for the US, the day after he left the north vietnamese army attacked saigon. HE has been through hell and beyond...He sat on boats for half a year with thousands of other people, only eating rotten shrimp and rice, he spent some time on waike island, and finally made it over to the US. This whole time all he had was a bag the size of a bowling ball bag, he had with him, his official documents, 2 pairs of underwear, one pair of paints, his shoes, and 2 shirts. He started going to college into chicago...then went to graduate school in berkely, paying is way by working around the clock and never having the luxuries of many other college men... He eventually was able to apply to the communists to have his whole family sent to the US. (you couldn't leave unless the commies said so) He finally recieved a Ph D in math from berkely, and now makes over a little over 100k as a radar engineer for raytheon.

If this can, I hope this is an inspiration for you people that feel abused or mistreated. I'm sure you have more than nothing, which was pretty much what my father had...Hang in there, and never give up.

Evildred144: we dont do anything a normal family does.. we cant order dinner out , go out and do stuff as a family or even see a movie. We cant afford it. Basically We are just surviving.. and I never said I was ungrateful for my computer.. I thanked my grandmother all the time for it Because My parents didnt have the money to get me one and they barely have the money to pay for the internet. This summer I had to help my dad paint this womans House because we needed some extra money. I really want to go on vacation one year because Ive never been on one... but its still gonna be a few more summers. Of course I dont blaim my Father for being poor... The reason were poor was because When my father was in 11th grade he had to go to 11th grade during the day and 12th at night because He needed to get a job to support my grandmother.. she had alzheimers ( cant spell it but she died of course... :( ) so he had to take any job he could.. Which was being a custodian at a elementry school. My fathers very smart and Was a straight A student. He just couldnt do anything with it because of the situation. - . - I said before I had it bad and compared to alot of familys I do.

Do you take any medicaton,
I used to be very depressed and thought about suicide but I always decided not too do it because in judaism suicide is a horrible sin and it would not be worth leaving what seemed to be a bad life, just to go to an even worse life in hell for awhile...
and because even though my life seemed horrible I still loved my grandparents and parents and I didnt want to inflict pain on them... finally last year my mom took me to a psychiatrist cus she knew he was a good one cus that is the one she goes to,
and he perscribed a medicine called welbutrin for me.
and I am back to the same happygolucky kid I was when I was little.

Konidias you have to understand someone who is depressed like that there brain functions differently then normal. In every brain there are these things that release this chemical which is what keeps you happy and lets your brain sense enjoyment and crap, in some brains there are faulty parts and it releases not enough or abnormal amounts of it. thats why I take my medicine because it alters the release of the hormone so that my brain functions normally. Also you said to consider how people living in a thrid world country feel, its not that simple. If you werent allowed to be sad because other people have bigger problems that would be redicilous. Because yes America isnt a third world country but when you see that everyone else is being accepted and having fun, and you are cast out and seem deprived you are upset, sure you arent as deprived as people in a third world country but in that third qorld country most people are deprived and its their normal life, while as to your brain it seems as if everyone else isnt having a crappy time and you are. Its all caused by chemical imbalances in the brain and whatnot, so its hard ot understand if you dont have those imbalances, but you shoudlnt laugh at someone because they do and they were going to kill themselves, because doing so would be like laughing at a blind person or a mentally challenged person.

My life is good. My dad makes 150k a year and my mom doesn't have to work but she works as a secretary so shes not bored. My mom had to goto rehab once for a month for taking pills and alchohol. She wasn't as bad as she thought. I get almost whatever I want due to the fact I'm an only child and I love life. I get good grades and I plan on trying to get into NYU when I graduate.

A psychologist is someone who talks to you about the problem you have, they logically tried to help you get through your psycho problem (eh best way i coudl explain it) a psychiatirst is someone who perscribes medicines to correct the chemical imbalances etc...
not all of them are fools,
some are very good, although I dislike psychologists cus they are never really helpful. And about the money thing, I dont think he hates his parants cus they dont fork over money. I used to get upset like that too but it was I just got upset because my parents didnt have any money to give me,
I go to private jewish school so they spent what money they had on education, even so I still need partial scholarship. I was just upset that while all the poeple I knew got what they wanted and did what they wanted, I couldnt. My life is getting better, and my parents are making more money, its just they have both unfortunatly been screwed over jobwise before, my mother several times, and also other things got in the way of jobs, my mom used to be an alchoholic etc...
anyway now I barely ask for anything and when I do my mom either gets it for me or tells me when she wil be able to get it...
anyway its not a amtter of being spoiled or ungrateful, its chemical imbalances.

My dad got layed off and couldnt get a job for like a few months, and that sucked, but my mom works, so we were ok, he just recently got a new job. He doesnt make too much like over 100k or anything though, maybe like 75k tops, but my mom and dad both work so we do okay. suicide is kinda selfish.

lol your sig gave me a headache charles

:D lolol its tricky.....

merlin:

go find your nearest pond, dive in and ask the fishies for some attention.

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Neonight: If anyone made me want to commit suicide (While idiotic people do make me want to bang my head across this desk...), I'd tell em to take a flying ****. There's about... well a lot of other girls/women around here. Screw her....

But this is not the point. You got along, etc. Congratulations... I guess. :( At least you didn't kill yourself....

BUT THEN AGAIN, this could be another Shadow Knight "omg im going to kill myself in 5 minutes if you don't give me <script>."

BUT SCREEN NAME IS NOT LIKE THAT AND HE IS NEATOLEATO CASE CLOSED END OF STORY END OF THREAD BYE.

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YES

Jin:
You are a huge idiot. You always have to say something about Islam don't you? First you're off saying JIHAD! Now look at your sig. You obiviously are targeting Islam, not militants. My god, you just love talking bad about religion. How would you feel if I put in my sig, Support <insertnamehere> is like supporting a Jewish settler (which I consider is a Jewish invader/militant) Im not doing that, because I am not paranoid. You are very bias.

Neonight:

I HATE JIN. THIS IS WHY I HATE HIM____

Jin, you get weirder every day... :( I'm starting to dislike you more than I do, and much more than I used to when I was like OMGJINISLEETLOLROXORJINROX... :(

Medicine like anti-depressants usually makes depression worse because people feel they have to rely on drugs in order to live normally and to some, that just depresses them even more.

Tons of people have chemical imbalances in their brains, there are ways to fight it off naturally though.

So they're prescribing foreigners now? Prognosis: You need an Ethiopian.

LOL IM ME LOL

eek

im not depressed, i was just blinded by rage and love


i dont need medication, i tried that when i was 12, didnt do anything

im perfectly happy right now, just peachy
i feel stupid for thinking about killing myself
it was selfish of me to think to do so




anyways, im fine and dandy now :)

Just dont post here ;)

How were you going to kill yourself?